"The truth is rarely pure
and never simple."
- Oscar Wilde
sabel jane was born 8 years after her big sister to two parents who spent most of their time not communicating very well. sabel didn't get it, she lived in her own world. growing up, she had her share of problems; there were bad days at school, incidents with hair pulling, stealing, and sneaking kisses from boys when she got older. she learned early on how to be selfish and it was an innate ability that stuck with her through her teens and into adulthood.
her mother was selfish, and lived her own life on her own terms. it was so much to the point that when she divorced sabel's father during sabel's tween years, the young girl wasn't even surprised. oh, she fought it, tooth and nail. sabel tried to kill herself the way a child might, with tantrums and sharp objects, mutilation that left a large scar on her wrist and an even uglier one on her thigh. she tried to starve herself until her father admitted her for help. nothing changed the outcome of her parents relationship.
over the next few years she withdrew from her mother, who had left their father and abandoned their family in her opinion. she grew closer to him, always a daddy's girl, and avoided visiting her mother as much as she could. eventually her mother remarried and sabel felt a new bitterness at seeing her mom move on while her dad clung to the past, and it tarnished the idea of love, of all the fairy tale endings, all the happily ever afters she grew up on.
22 years old now, sabel flutters between jobs, between relationships, between aspects of her life itself, her spirit restless. she doesn't know what she believes in anymore. she's never been in love. she trusts few, and opens up to less. sabel decided a long time ago that if life was going to rip her happiness apart, she would be selfish and grasp at whatever fragments of that happiness she could hold onto. so far, she hasn't had any complaints.
FIRST MIDDLE AND LAST NAME
SABEL BARBARA JANE
BIRTHDATE AND AGE
9/5/1992 - 22 YEARS OLD
I'M A SELF PROCLAIMED VAGABOND. I HOP FROM JOB TO JOB, I DON'T REALLY CARE FOR A LOT OF THINGS, AND BEING BOSSED AROUND IS ONE OF THEM. I'VE BEEN A WAITER, A MALL COP, A STOCK PHOTO MODEL, A TELEMARKETER, A BAGGER AT A GROCERY STORE, EVEN A FUCKING SIGN SPINNER. RIGHT NOW? I'M MAKING MONEY SELLING PICTURES OF MYSELF VIA REDDIT AND BEING A PRIVATE CAM GIRL ON SOME VERY R-RATED WEBSITES. NOBODY KNOWS THOUGH, AND I INTEND TO KEEP IT THAT WAY.
WHO DOES YOUR FAMILY CONSIST OF? HOW MANY SIBLINGS?
CLOSEST AND DEAREST WOULD BE MY DAD AND MY OLDER SISTER. MY MOM DIVORCED MY DAD WHEN I WAS 13 AND WENT AND GOT REMARRIED TO SOME FUCKING DENSE ASS MACHO MAN. SHE'S GOT 2 KIDS, SO I GUESS I'VE GOT 3 SIBLINGS TOTAL.
WHAT KIND OF PETS DO YOU HAVE?
I'VE GOT TWO AMAZING DOGS, MORIARTY AND SHERLOCK. THE DOGS STAY WITH MY DAD, AND NOW I LIVE WITH HIM.
WHICH HAWTHORN NEIGHBORHOOD DO YOU LIVE IN?
DO YOU LIVE ALONE?
NO, I LIVE WITH MY DAD RIGHT NOW. IT'S NOT THE IDEAL SITUATION, BUT I'M MAKING THE BEST OF IT. AT LEAST I GET TO SEE MY DOGS ALL THE TIME.
WHAT IS YOUR IDEA OF PERFECT HAPPINESS?
THERE'S NO SUCH THING AS PERFECT HAPPINESS. EVERYTHING IS MOMENTARY. SOME OF MY ABSOLUTELY FUCKING FAVORITE MOMENTS ARE SPENDING TIME WITH AWESOME PEOPLE, SEEING SUNSETS, HAVING GREAT SEX, DELISCIOUS FOOD, PLAYING WITH MY DOGS, VISITING WEIRD LITTLE TOURIST TRAPS. IT'S SMALL THINGS THAT PIECE TOGETHER, YOU KNOW?
WHAT IS YOUR RELATIONSHIP LIKE WITH YOUR PARENTS?
MY MOM AND I AREN'T CLOSE AT ALL, NOT ANYMORE. SHE DIVORCED MY DAD BACK WHEN I WAS 13, LEFT AND DID HER OWN THING. MY DAD AND I ARE BEST FRIENDS. HE MEANS EVERYTHING TO ME, HE JUST GETS ME, HE SUPPORTS ME AND LOVES ME. I COULDN'T HANDLE LIFE WITHOUT HIM.
WHAT DOES YOUR IDEAL WEEKEND OR DAY OFF LOOK LIKE?
GOING ON AN ADVENTURE, CAUSING SOME MAYHEM. BASICALLY, WHATEVER THE HELL I WANT TO DO, I DO IT. SOME OF THE BEST WEEKENDS I'VE EVER HAD WERE SPENT DRIVING ACROSS STATES OR GOING TO THE BEACH. I'VE DONE CRAZY SHIT JUST FOR FUN. AND SOME WEEKENDS I JUST SIT IN MY PAJAMAS AND EAT HALF A GALLON OF ICE CREAM AND WATCH NETFLIX. IT'S ALL WHATEVER MAKES ME HAPPY IN THE MOMENT.
WHAT DO YOU REGRET MOST ABOUT HIGH SCHOOL?
I DON'T KNOW, MAYBE JUST NOT BEING MORE AWARE OF THE WAY I TREATED MYSELF AND HOW IT AFFECTED MY FRIENDS. MY PARENTS WERE IN THE MIDDLE OF THEIR DIVORCE, I WAS MISERABLE, ALMOST ALL THE FUCKING TIME. I TRIED TO KILL MYSELF MORE THAN ONCE, AND I WAS A MESS. THEN I ENDED UP TRYING TO STARVE MYSELF, WHICH GOT ME ADMITTED FOR AN EATING DISORDER FOR A MONTH. IT WAS THE LONGEST MONTH OF MY LIFE, AND I STILL HAD TO DO MY HOMEWORK. IT WASN'T WORTH IT, I DIDN'T CHANGE ANYTHING, I DIDN'T ACCOMPLISH SHIT EXCEPT HURTING MYSELF AND THE PEOPLE I CARED ABOUT. PRETTY SELFISH.
WHAT WORD OR WORDS DO YOU OVERUSE THE MOST?
YOU TELL ME? I DON'T PAY ENOUGH ATTENTION TO THINK ABOUT WHETHER I'M USING A WORD TOO MUCH. WORDS ARE WORDS. YOU WANT TO KNOW WHAT THE MOST COMMON WORD IN THE ENGLISH LANGUAGE IS? "THE" SO I GUESS THAT'S THE WORD I'M OVERUSING THE MOST.
WHAT FICTIONAL CHARACTER DO YOU MOST RELATE TO?
LOKI, BECAUSE HE'S SELFISH, HE'S A JOKESTER, BUT HE'S NOT ALL BAD EITHER. AT LEAST I DON'T THINK SO. HE LOVES HIS FAMILY, HIS CIRCUMSTANCES SUCKED. I DON'T KNOW, I COULD TRY HARDER WITH THIS QUESTION BUT I JUST KNOW I'M DEFINITELY MORE OF A VILLAIN THAN A HEROINE.
HOW WOULD YOU LIKE TO DIE?
DOING SOMETHING I LOVE, SO ALL I FEEL IS ELATION UNTIL THE INEVITABLE. WHETHER THAT'S DOING SOMETHING CRAZY LIKE A SKYDIVING ACCIDENT, OR HAVING A HEART ATTACK BECAUSE I'M 80 YEARS OLD HOOKING UP WITH SOME HOT DUDE IN HIS 50S, I DON'T KNOW. I JUST DON'T WANT TO DIE IN MY BED, I'D RATHER BE OUT LIVING MY LIFE.
full name: sabel barbara jane-dabrowski
DOB + age: september 5th, 1992 (22 years)
current residence: wentworth village
occupation: lifeguard at ymca